Well, that backfired on me

Last night I had finished the book I was listening, so I figured I would leave my computer and my iPod at Kathi's house. I did it in hopes of getting to bed earlier (it worked). However, I didn't update my blog before I left. Whoops. Sorry to leave you hangin'.

So, yesterday I was looking at a catalog I got in the mail. I was just flipping through it, looking at the cute clothes, when it hit me that eventually I may be able to consider some of those very things for myself. It was crazy! I have never even imagined myself to be able to wear clothes like that. I've never pictured it, or even thought about it. Last night was the first time I realized that by the time I reach my goals, I will be able to. I will be able to! I'm soooo dang excited!

I ripped that page right out of the catalog, and scanned it so I can put it on here, just to see it every once in a while....maybe I'll order one of the shirts as a "goal" and post a picture of myself in it when I get to that point! Ooooo...that's a good idea. There is only one problem. I have NO idea what size to buy. I have no idea what size to shoot for. Right now I am wearing size 18/20, on average. Sometimes I have to go a little higher and there are some fabulous styles of clothes I can squeeze into which are 16. Can anyone help me out? Does anyone have any idea roughly what size I would be if I weighed 154? Hmmm....that's a good question. The other question is, should I get the shirt in yellow or green?? And, dare I go for a skirt as well???

 

Hehe...I just got all excited again, posting the picture!!!

This hasn't been the greatest day, in terms of my goals here. My brother has been a real stinker lately and this morning I had to face and deal with a bunch of the crap he's been up to. It took all morning and I didn't even really get breakfast, although I did snack on some waffles Kathi made last night. Of course, that just threw me off for the whole day. I tried to salvage it, but I'm not sure how successful my efforts were. Of course, there are times I feel like I've done bad during the day, and when I journal everything out, it doesn't seem as bad as I thought. So, I'll decide if I was successful after I see what I actually ate. 

I'm nervous about tomorrow's weigh-in. Usually I'm extremely excited, but I don't feel like it's going to be good numbers. After last week, when I did (thankfully) lose the two pounds, but ended up gaining in measurements, I'm just scared! I attributed that to my body gearing up for my period. I was hoping that would not be much of an issue by the time the next weigh-in came around. Unfortunately, it did not start as soon as I had hoped, so I fear my body is still holding on to a bunch of....of....well, whatever it holds on to! I don't even know if my weight is going to be down.

*sob*

On top of the worries about tomorrow, I did something foolish concerning a guy today and I'm feeling anxiety about it. Eeeeee! Of course, that has nothing to do with anything here, but I do like to mention that there are occasionally guys in my life to be foolish about. It makes me feel better.  I think. I'm gonna scroll up and look at those cute shirts again. That got my mind off of my anxiety earlier. 

Yes. That's much better! 

Okay, anyway, exercise. I did a good step aerobic exercise workout last night. Kathi wasn't so pleased to find I had frozen out her house while she was gone. I really thought she would appreciate that I turned the heat off when I opened the windows so as to not have it running and trying to counteract the cold air coming in. I was only trying to save on her heating bill, honestly! Okay, so I should have shut the door, but honestly, I was in the "zone." I cannot be held accountable for lack of common sense.

I really attacked the step tonight with all the anxiety I felt. However, I got a phone call from a good friend and talking it out helps with the anxiety too, so I had to talk to her! Unfortunately, I didn't get as much exercise in as I was hoping. I did do some arm toning stuff, though, before quitting for the night.

Wednesday Meals

Breakfast:

• Egg, bacon, cheese sandwich
• Milk

Lunch:

• Black beans
• Brown rice
• Orange

Dinner:

• Some yummy waffles Kathi made (nothing on them...they need nothing)
• Frozen garlic, shrimp pasta meal thingy

Snacks:

• Mini Delights
• Fiber bar

Thursday Meals

 Breakfast:

• Um....some waffles, I guess

Lunch:

• Hamburger

Dinner:

• Leftover of that frozen garlic, shrimp pasta meal thingy from last night

Snacks:

• Mini Delights (x3?)
• Fiber One bar
• One caramel almond chocolate

Crap! I don't think I'm eating enough!!! That's not good!!!